Part two: Phone calls from the abyss

So, this is whats left of me:

I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,

And I find myself trying to stay by the phone,'

Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say...

So thats what i'm feeling.

Its Fort Minor again, I think the song fits.

Today was like everyday; confusing and dramatic.

I have a date for prom now, i'm going with Chris.

Just as friends, I swear.

I found out i passed AP with a C+

I'm happy about that. I needed that. I feel reassured.

After school i went to Matts.

Bright Eyes and i get along just fine,

So long as nothing comes after.

He'd rather kiss a guy then me in spin the bottle.

I get it might be awkward,

But dear god thats a shot to the heart.

When i get home, if not frustrated enough,

Mom has a tension headache and starts bitching

And i cant get my prom dress.

And i'm annoyed

And i'm pissed off

And i feel like total shit.

Theycame over from Matts

And i was still feeling terrible.

But then he called.

you know who he is...

I dont know why, But i felt estatic.

Maybe its because i thought he might have moved on yesterday

He didnt call, didnt seem too estatic to talk,

I thought we might have floated back to "Aquaintances" and i was hating it.

But then he called today,

And his voice was soothing as ever...

Its ironic that he was playing the "overprotective" card again.

We were talking about what sort of whoreish dress i could get

And he said i better not be a whore now

And after i asked how he'd ever know, He replied,

"You'll know when they start disappearing."

And i got a call from my friend about a prom date

Whom i unfortunatly had to turn down (he's a great dancer)

But she said she was there with Ray,

A guy i partied with last summer.

By party i mean i got shit faced drunk with,

You know; the one with the girlfriend?

Well, after that, he tells me via his friends Myspace that he had fun

And should i want to hang, give him a call.

Dear god, you know i'm bored and lonely,

I hope i dont screw up.

He's so damn cute for an asshole.