Why do you see right through me?

I'm so exausted right now.
Bright eyes is driving me insane.
He does these things,
Crazy things, mad things, insane things.
And i'm still head over heals despite him.

The other night at Rico's he was acting different;
He was not his usual ass hole self.
He was pulling me onto his lap and giggling
And i gave him a back massage for a long while.

Today at Matts house,
He layed on my lap as we watched the movie,
And he had requested that i scratch his back.
And when we all went to my house,
He wanted me to give him another massage.

The entire time we watched Day after tomorrow
I sat on his half bare back and gave him chills.
That is until the end when everyone was leaving,
Though my brothers walked in,
We got up on the couch and got tucked under a blanket.

He told my friend that he loves me like a little sister
And i'm debating telling him i dont want to be near him
Because it hurts so god damn bad
To know i can never be with him...