I wish i could have quit you, I wish i never missed you.

"How could you do this to me?

Look at what I made for you, it never was enough and the world is what I gave to you.

I used to be love struck; now I'm just fucked up.

Pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts!"

I dont think i'm okay with this anymore. I was okay when he hated me; i had accepted it; i had moved on. And now where am i? "I'm sorry. I took your friendship for granted."

I dont know where it goes from here? What did it mean? Is he trying to be friends again? Is he just trying to make sure things are neutral again? Is he just attempting an even playing feild because he feel guilty? Or worst of all: is this just a cruel joke?

I'm uneasy. I dont think tonight will be okay... I'll try, i promise, but i dont think i am going to be okay with this, not tonight. I've tried writing back but nothing comes out right.

"I dont think that i should forgive you because i do not believe you've done anything wrong. You were honest and truthful about how you felt and that is okay. If anything, i feel the need to thank you for the things you had said because you made me that much stronger. It hurt a lot and i was crushed and i dont think i will be the same because of it but i'm okay... Just know that i'll always love you still, no matter what happens after this and i'll always be here for you..."

Thats the best thing i could think of. Not nearly enough said, but that general idea...

I didnt think it would happen and if i did i didnt think it would be this difficult...

&crushed;Sid