Yesterday started out fun. We had a party for my friend whom was leaving... It just so happens that the party was in a store and we were raising hell... But yes. Bright Eyes was still all over Tina (Go figgure, everyone is) but when she left he was a little bit more open...
He's a nice guy whos lived a shockingly tough life. I dont know how to describe it but it's a mix of me being impressed and proud that he's still so well rounded after such a rough life... He's a good kid. Lots of hobbys and talents and everything else imaginable... The scary thing is that he was just like my ex (the one i was "in love with" whom i'm now officially nicknaming "loverboy"). His actions, his words, his dancing, his singing, his jokes... Its terrifying to think about how bad this little crush is going to get...
Night quickly turned to hell. I made a few mistakes and bad choices but i'm almost glad i did it. This guy and i had hated each other since last year. To be honest, we've hated each other on and off through out the whole 2 and a half years we've known each other (yes, this is the "jackass" who kept leading me on and then going after other girls. The same one who cheated on my friend and hated me for being the reason she found out...). I have said a whole lot of terrible things about him and i know he's thought the same. The past week we hadn't been so angry at each other because he now dates another one of my friends so we've been forced into contact. It wasn't like it used to be where we'd avoid each other and never give a passing glance... But still, we were less then neutral...
Last night i got into some trouble on account of that bad descision... I'm not going to give details, if you want to know, call and ask (most of you have my number). My point is that he had no reservations or hesitations to help me. Him and bright eyes. Those two (as well as his girlfriend) are the reason i'm going to be able to breathe comfortably for the next six months. This mistake was so bad that i would have had to give up cheerleading, the winter formal, and all freedom for the next (roughly) 6 months...
I dont think he'll (or rather they'll) find this, but if the should, Thank you guys. I'm so greatful for all you've done...
&love;Sid
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